This is a long journal so if you get to the end of it, I congratulate you and thank you.
It's been a while since I made a proper status update to explain my lack of availability on this website and very rushed drawings.
Big part of it is how this website and community has really changed for me. If you are an old dA user, meaning if you used this website around 2005-2010, you will understand what I mean. This website was very much alive. I had friends on dA too. But, eventually people grow up. I joined this website when I was 14, now I'm 23. Most get busy and they move on. And this slowly happened to me too, I lost contact with people I considered friends and together went my interest for this website. And it still is like that too. Though I visit this website weekly, the special 'soul' hidden behind it for me is now... gone. And I do miss it.
So, a first part of this journal is that I want to know who is following me.
Introduce yourself, tell me about you. If you've been here a while, and I used to know you, please comment and tell me how you are doing. We are still the same people, after all.
For people who are relatively new here, I shall tell you a little about myself.
First of all yes, I am ILuvKnucklesShadow on youtube. And no, I will not be making more Sonic videos on youtube. My youtube channel was an incredible hobby for me when I was a young teen. I was making videos mostly for my own entertainment and that suddenly 'exploded'. It especially happened around the time I was giving up this channel. It was just an interest that eventually faded away. I got more into drawing, more into deviantART.
I became very active on deviantART around the ages of 14-16. If I remember right that is. It was the time where I was very closed off from the world and focused on my art and online friends. They all meant a lot to me, and they still do. But back then, it was my whole world. I was having an awful time at school, literally had no friends there. I just did not understand any people my age. They were all children to my eyes and I mostly got along with adults. Who knows... maybe I was too mature for my age.
I still remember my chats on msn with very dear friends of mine, who know who they are. And still have such a special place in my heart. I will never be able to fully express how much I love these people, how they are such a big part of what I am today as a person. I love you, very much.
After 16, I started focusing a lot on school. I got my head back into the books. I actually started making some friends too, very little but at least I wasn't entirely alone in school. My self confidence started to increase, I was finally getting out of my miserable teenage years. If you are a teen around that age, trust me when I say that it gets better. You are just developing.
My activity on the net declined. I finally finished school at 18, and moved to the UK to study Arts.
My studies abroad and away from home have been the biggest effect on my self development. I've talked about this before, but I fell into a whole of intense self-hate in my first year of uni. I wouldn't eat, wouldn't be able to look at myself in the mirror. I developed anorexia, which lasted for nearly 2 years. But I got better... my friends at uni, my family and my lovely man helped me to see why I am special. And why people around me that I love and care for are special. We all have our flaws, but if you are a good person, you are a unique person in your own way and you deserve to be happy. What I took from my uni years, 18-23 is, just do good and good will come to you. Cheesy, but true. Just be kind, please.
I am now nearly finishing my Masters studies in 3D arts and haven't felt miserable in a long while. And I am hoping to get a job relative to these studies. That's what I am looking for at the moment.
I want to continue to draw as a hobby. As I haven't drawn much during my final uni years, I want to get it back. So I will come back here, maybe change my username as to me it's outdated now. I want to form this place into more... "me", and not my teenage self anymore. I'm already heading that way, too.
So, I want to fill you in with my plan to soon come in the beginning of October:
1. I will finally continue Silver's story. It's a story that I still have in my head very well. I am planning to be releasing it in chapters, so a bunch of pages in one go when I complete them.
2. I starting a youtube channel, called annanimates, in which I am hoping to make short animations to practice and develop a personal animated style. It's something that I always wanted to do. If you want, you can subscribe to me: www.youtube.com/channel/UCPGlp…
This has been highly inspired by Domics. But, I will of course not try in any way to copy his style. Animators want to animate, and that's that.
3. I will still use this website mostly for my fanart and personal little drawings. I am not sure if there will be any Sonic related artwork anymore, apart from Silver's story, as I have moved on. I'm sorry. Sonic still has a very special place in my heart, but I just don't draw him as much anymore. Like I said, people move on.
Phew, alright... long journal. But very much needed.
Thank you to all who have stuck with me throughout all these years. It's nearly been a decade, can you believe it? 1/9th of a life, almost... terrifying.
ps: Who has watched Stranger Things, because oh my gooooooooooodnesssssssss.